ARGH! VISIONING!

During my first quarter being president, I lost myself. I forgot how to be Kristyn, what Kristyn needs and wants, and why Kristyn desired so badly to be president in the first place. I am beginning to find myself again so my vision is still a work in progress- its a "me" overhaul :) hence the ridiculous title.

My mission in life is to cultivate faith, hope, and love in myself as well as all those who have contact with me. These three words can be given meaning in many different ways, all of which are meant to be shared. That being said, I have been searching for an answer as to why I want to be a doctor so badly and why nothing else would satisfy my life goal. The answer lies first within love. I believe that there is no greater gift in this world than to love with your entirety and be loved in return. I will love each of my patients, I have no doubt. I want them to be able to love their life enough to truly grasp each day as if the world were theirs; to do this, I dedicate myself to let my lyre send forth the chords of love, unselfishness, and sincerity in hopes that one person loving them simply for the fact that they are themselves will be enough to allow them to continue their life journey.

Hope is a concept that the healthcare world is familiar with. We hope that all will go well and that we can go about our day saving lives and all of that jazz. However, I believe that hope goes beyond this sort of simplistic concept of wondering if our wishes will come true. Hope is the driving force behind the pursuit of our dreams because it defines our possibility. If you have no hope, possibility is limited. If you have an abundance of hope, you may be knocked down a time or two but you will be able to stand up a stronger person and press on toward true achievement. I have hope that I will have the strength to endure medical school, to be a mom and raise a family in a loving environment, and to be genuinely happy in all of my endeavors. I will strike on the lyre of the universe only the notes of happiness, of joy, of peace to extend to each my hope for a better world.

To me, faith is not about religion. In fact, I am not sure where I stand when it comes to religion. I do believe in spirituality and the spirit inside of myself. Faith is the basis for both hope and love; if you have faith in yourself or in the process, I believe that what is meant to be will work itself out. I sometimes have a hard time with faith, which therefore affects my ability to love and hope to my full potential. I want answers to all of my questions. I'm not very patient and I am afraid of making a wrong decision that will lead to failure which by the way i am TERRIFIED of. In order to achieve my life mission I know that I must work through this fear so as to spread my philosophy on to others. I will continue to see beauty even in the common things of life and try to remember that everything doesn't have to go perfectly to be perfect for me.